Jaystripe

[jaystripe]

Name: Jaystripe
Age: 17 moons
Gender: Male
Rank: Deputy
Personality:

The names jaystripe. Call me whatever you like nothing can hurt me anymore. Im the deputy of a clan i despise a clan that will never get me. I hold a secret deep inside of myself. One that would make me an outcast and nothing but a loner. Some days i think that that would be best. Love is something that i will never have for i do not love the oppsite sex. Well it seems I justt spilled my deepest secret. Dont tell promise. For if any one was to know it would ruin it all. I often question my thinking. For either way a part of me will die. I yearn for love but because of my cowedness I have nothing more then hidden relationships full of lust. This thought never solved my yearning,it only made me want more. As my mind slowly is riped apart how i am i suppsot to help lead the clan. Some days when i wake up i think it be easier if i jsut disappered forever. Though somethign inside me tells me i must be true to myself and my clan. Even thought they wont ever accept who I am it couldnt hurt could it. So yea I just spilled my guts out for you i never do that. I'm not sure what came over me. Please say you accept me please dont leave me please dont be like how every else will be. For on the outside is a strong calm cat but on the inside is just a scared kit with attitude problems.

Description:

Jaystripe is a large built cat. He has icy blue eyes that are hard to not get lost in. His pelt is a silvery grey with a patch of white over his chest. He has a scar on his right back foot from a fight when he was only a kit. He front left paw is black which reminds him of the darkness in the world. His over all built is very musclar but till small enough for him to be swift and quick on his paws.

Clan Page Description:

Eyes:Icy blue
Pelt: a silvery grey with white and his left front paw is black
Gender: male

History:

My kit hood was fairly normal my parents were lvoing i had no siblings thought. My mother would I started to become close to a she male cat but something was just wrong and it ended before anythign could start.
As i became a warrior my mother would always ask when I would be having kits and when she would finally get a baby girl. It was at this point i realised i was not normal. With everyday i felt more and more yearning to be with my best friend. So i pushed it away and with that i pushe dhim away also. I quickly became a top warrior in the clan with my fighting skills and wins during battles. After the deputy died there was a lack of leadership in the clan. I was picked over many of my senior warrios to be deputy.

Even thought i just became a deputy things havent gone well. There is small outrage in the camp over the pick and i feel the clan does not have my back. Even more i must keep my secret. The yearning thought i cant stop and i have several encounters with loners that leave me wanting more.

Rp Sample:

The sun was jsut rising the sky still pale. Most cats had jsut started waking up ,but jaystripe had been up all night. He went to the shore and watched the stars turn him to nothing. He wonder what starclan thought of him. Would he be destinted to be up there or walk the lonely forest with the evil spirits that use to walk the clans. His mind hazy and paws heavy with lack of sleep he realized he better get back to camp before everyone start worring. As he turned around his best friend jump out and pinned him. Jaystripe found him stairing in his eyes. The feelings of love came back.